reminder of goals

i am a goal writer.  ever since i was in high school, i would write my goals in the back of my journals and eventually they came true.  that's how i got my bachelor's degree in 3 years and have my doctorate by the time i was 25.  or even backpacked europe for 3 months.  but sometimes my goals overtake my life, i achieve them, then what? next goal?

"only problem if i wasn't moving forward i felt i was going to explode." -quote from limitless movie

my life has been inundated with certificates i do not use.  and so lately my goals have not been prominent in my journal.

but recently i've been re-inspired.  i'm part of a bi-weekly group that meets to check in on our goals, originally i started on this in hawaii and it transformed to la with another circle of friends.  yet even then how many vision boards can you do?

i start to wonder the difference between to dos and actually goals.  my 40 hr week job which is not my passion consumes my life and energy, overshadowing my goals.  i realize i sometimes put off goals due to money or time, when in reality it is me who is the procrastinator.

this became apparent the other day when looking up a training for my yoga certificate, which i've been exploring for years. but it's too expensive, when do i want to put in that weekend time?  now i have a job on weekends.  but i applied for a scholarship, and that was all i needed.  i don't know if i will receive that scholarship, but will i continue to put off a goal b/c 50% of my tuition won't be covered? my body is not getting any younger.

one more daily to do but necessary goal. taking that 30 minute lunch break outside of your office and outside in the sun. do so today!

revitalizing social media

i vacillate between a love and hate of blogging/updating/journaling and the abyss of no facebook updates. new vow to maintain my presence online, even if only for myself as a forum to write. the act of writing could be what julia cameron terms as "morning pages" in the artist way.  three pages of free flow writing daily.  i try to mark via this blog my 40 days of being a tourist, 30 days of bikram, or my 10 day master cleanse.  but what about every other day that is not a themed countdown?  every other day is just as important even if not grouped together as something.

back in la, new job, new life mixed with my old friends.   transforming to a newer life ahead of me.  getting married several months to go.  what an interesting path of being engaged for almost 3 years has been.  more time in an engagement than some spend in marriages.  cold feet has been processed in this 3 years. and now i am just ready!!!

if i did do a countdown now, to 12/11/11