Upward Dog

Day 10: Upward Dog

When I have slightly more strength than peaking up from cobra, or I completely bypass chautranga, I enter in Upward Dog.  Each time I enter into the asana, my lower back cracks, an area that doesn’t even appear to bother me.  I feel strong in this pose.  Your arms are strong holding your body up, legs straight off the floor, back arched.  Your gaze looks directly forward, and you know the next pose is going to launch into the opposite of this one: downward dog. 

I ended my two day writers conference, hopeful.  Hopeful of what may be next.  It was a Hay House conference that emphasized spirituality.  It incorporated some of the basic writing components, but enhanced it with how your essence or drive shouldn’t just be to be a bestseller but to help and serve others. 

Cheryl Richardson mentioned the day prior how she gave God and the Universe this ultimatum.  God grant her a sign of how to do this next step in her life and if it doesn’t happen, it is his will.  And so I decided to do the same, not to copy but to try it out for myself.  I was at a low point.  Lately, I felt my career has been going in circles, and each time I get farther from the source and the reason I entered this field.  I gave God 24 hours for a sign to enter my life.  I wrote a letter to God while in the conference yesterday, and now I wait.  The problem is it’s neared hour 24, and there has been no major sign.  There’s been bursts of small signs, but nothing major has popped out at me.

And so I begin to wonder does setting ultimatums to God really work?  And if signs were being sent to me, was I able to have the capacity to see them?   I position myself and upward dog, look forward, prepared to see the signs.  If no signs  emerge, somehow I must still continue to look forward and prepare myself for the next step that lies ahead.