days 4 and 5

my days 5 and 6 were so close together, not enough time to blog...
day 5: friday night.  although I do not love bikram, i was looking forward to it.  it rained all day, which brought chills to the air in hawaii.  although it was only the low 70s, it felt like the 60s.  i had perpetual goose bumps for the day.  so i didn't really mind going to be in 120 degrees for an extended amount of time. better instructor, who seemed to enjoy what she was doing, vs. the ones I've had who spoke in monotonous tones. she actually did some corrections to us, spending extra minutes with us vs. getting out early.

day 6: a male instructor, cute, nice body. i can see why men like having young vibrant female instructors.  it makes things easier. yet with your focus being on your body, you don't even focus on his body. he was rigid (in his teachings). it's 120 degrees, you're "sweating like a lechon" (as my mom would say, aka roasted pig). i always wipe my face and grab water. he discouraged this, stating that was our mind distracting us. if we can sit in the discomforts, it will pass.  preparing for day 7, want to do it early. get it out of the way. but i am discouraged. i think i am gaining weight. how is that possible? not much change in my life now.  if i didn't make that self commitment, i would actually quit. no reason to stay involved with this much work. i thought of all the salty sweat coming off my body, dripping. it's like my body is crying. which it needs to. but this is pure masochistic behavior. who would do this to themselves b/c of enjoying it? i can see it as detox but on a regular basis? no