Note: At the end of the work day, a co-worker saw me and said “Why are you smiling?” I responded quickly, “because the day is over.” But inside I wondered, maybe I was smiling b/c of gratitude I voiced today.
Day 3 Communication with loved ones
When tourists arrive somewhere, especially another country, they want to tell others about their safe arrival. They made it to their destination without any hiccups, they are safe. Depending how early this communication is made, they may even start to tell the sites they have seen so far, they beauty that surrounds them.
Today I decided to communicate with my loved ones and share my process. I have been writing about these days in my blog. Previously my blog had focused on my bikram process or briefly moving to Hawaii
I noticed lately overall have been not talking with friends as much the past year. Highly likely due to job burnout, listening to others’ problems all day. I don’t always have the energy to hear or talk anymore. My communication with friends, mostly through facebook. Oddly I used to be a phone person, yet this has taken a pause.
When I travelled, the majority of my communication about my experience was through mass emails. I had not yet followed the blog lifestyle. Maybe the emails were dismissed or briefly scanned, but I know some people took it to heart. Some one actually adhered to my travel advice when she went to the Shakesperian globe in London Pamplona
Now although I am not going anywhere, just living somewhere touristy, will people listen? Rush through it? Or completely disregard?
All I know is today I did my part in living as a tourist, reaching out to my loved ones, sharing my experience. All I can control is me, what I choose to share. It is up to others to read and connect.
Day 4: Keep some things sacred
Yesterday I was proud I shared my blog on Facebook, yet no responses. My friend called, I thought it was because she had received my birthday card in advance. In actuality, she was calling because she read my blog. I expected to hear fascination of my new project or talk about her upcoming birthday, but the reason she was calling was because she was concerned about me. She told me “not to bullshit” her, as she did this to others all the time. I wondered, what did I write? Did I sound that depressed. I certainly did not try to convey that. I have been somewhat down lately, but recently there has been a shift in this next phase. What was I presenting to the world? Were they being misinformed by how I wrote, was I writing too much? This is a cathartic process, but not meant to be a flaming white flag of surrender.
Today I decided to keep things sacred.
As a tourist, sometimes we have experiences so moving that to discuss them would take away the awe factor. Sometimes we need to live in the wow-ness slightly longer, soak it in. Nobody may understand the true spiritual experience we may have visiting a quiet church or a world heritage site.
And so for today, the link to the blog is down. No in depth explorations of my mood or internal experiences I am going through, future plans. Nothing. Just appreciating internally where I am at, without verbally vomiting. Keep dreams and hopes inside, before they are quickly killed prior to action being taken.
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